Interesting Times

I write this blog post with great angst in my soul, and a desperate realisation that I no longer come bounding into the office to write my blog posts, nor do I feel energised and creative every waking moment so that I can come up with an interesting blog post for you all to muse at.

I am overwhelmed.

Indeed such is the intensity of my predicament that I have become consumed with the projects I have set for myself. This website for instance is getting almost no attention from me, when really it should. It’s my outlet, my fun, my … expression? . Yet lately I have set myself the task of rebuilding the website or indeed, creating a brand new one for thelongmile.COM. And as if that wasn’t tough or time consuming enough, I’ve also got a rebuilt, admittedly forced, social life because of CardiffTweetups.co.uk which is no bad thing, but it’s still reducing my time and money at an alarming rate.

Couple that with the fact I am now, or at least appear to be, second in command at apptacious.com and having rebuilt it, I’ve now got to manage it. I’m getting involved with a local project called The Sprout, and I am continually deprived and depressed about my ‘real life’ job. Frankly it’s a little worrying.

I am consumed….

I’ve been sucked in by all this, and the fact that Cardiff has exciting times ahead of it thanks to the new St Davids centre opening, the winter wonderland, and the rest and I’m actually getting pretty bogged down with just… living! None of which is a bad thing, but it does explain where my time is going at the moment.

The angst however comes from apprehension at how you’ll receive this blog post, since these are all so few and far between these days. I have not even told you about all of the photography I’ve been doing, nor have I uploaded it to NextGen gallery.

I am hopeful….

Hopeful of the fact that my efforts will pay off, my workload will reduce, and I’ll get a decent job. Of course I’m also hopeful that someone out there will read this and perhaps offer a little encouragement. I of course expect my social life to continue, however I just need to sit down for an hour a day or so and pay attention to this site, and plus once I develop my photography site, then maybe, JUST maybe, I’ll be able to have a pop at getting the rest of the things done.

I am determined…..

I am, really, determined to make sure that I as a person get this done, because not only am I rebuilding the site, but I am also rebuilding myself. I’ve changed as a person, for the better I hope, but I’ve also changed for the right reasons, at least I hope I have. I should imagine I have developed as a person.

I am happy, however, that my entire life is in chaos but in a great way. theres so much going on, but it’s so worth it right now, and let’s also not forget that the moment this post goes live, I know that at least 45 people are looking at it, and that makes me happy.

So interesting times with me, with Cardiff, and you know what? I know I said that my job is getting on top of me but hey, It’s the money I’m interested in, and everything else is going reasonably ok, so, everything, for once, is not bad.

Not bad at all.