The Worst Kind Of Human?

Latley I’ve been sat here rebuilding and redesigning this website. Good thing yes?

Well perhaps not. I’m an obsessive. I really am, and there are no two ways about it. If I create something, it has to be perfect, If I design something it has to conform to my specifications. If I end up worrying about something (Which is frequently do) I will worry myself sick for days, and have difficulty sleeping.

It’s no surprise then that I’m like this with all aspects of my life, women, friends, family and work. It’s not meant in any bad way of course. It simply means I care a lot about people I am with or know or things I do. Yet some people see it as a bad thing.

I can’t say I blame them, but we all worry. Just some of us don’t show it. In the past I have destroyed friendships and relationships just by worrying about certain things. All it would need it someone to say “It’s ok” in some cases, yet I unfortunatley rarley get that.

Someone once said it might be validation, it isn’t, but it seems being the worrying caring type who wants his friends, family, girlfriends to be ok, and for things to be ok in general is in fact the worst type of thing.

I’m not going to say I see it as a bad thing, but since when did caring about people become such a major issue?

How many of you out there would genuinley appriciate someone that cares and worries about you and your relationship with them, be it a friendship or be it a full on relationship?

How many of you are employers and wouldn’t want someone who worrys about the quality of work they submit despite it being excellent, knowing that they would always push themselves to be the best person they can be?

Honestly I try, I try to be the best person I can be, and yes, I worry, but that worrying has meant I have little or no success with friendships or relationships, all because I want things to go well. I consider it to be one of my flaws, yet I also consider it to be one of my best qualities.

So does worrying really make me, the Worst Kind Of Human?